Changes of life

Who knew life can change a lot? 

Few years ago I was just a student in a crappy school in small town in Saudi. Then I was in Dubai, and now I'm in Toronto! 

The city is vibrant and full of life, it's very liberating. So many people from all around the world are immigrants here and had started a whole life in the country. I can actually see myself few years from now living with my family here and start a life. All the cultures in the world are collided here, and everyone can keep their cultures and respect others' too. This is the beauty of Toronto. Everyone can live the life they want, and no one is here to judge or racist because the immigrants help the city to get better and better. There is life here for everyone. I know that i wouldn't have found a better city than Toronto. It might not be the perfect city but for me it is! I can do whatever I want and experience a whole new freedom that I never did before. 

I never thought the day would come where I'm in a place that I really want to be in.

How to make friends in University

Don't think! Just do as u please and dont give a damn what everyone thinks!! i found that out cuz of drinking. Once u r drunk the shy part of ur brain stop thinking, and u do stuffs without thinking which is good. Becuz u become more friendly and talkative, I read that online too. That drinking shuts down the shyness And makes u more friendly So once u stop thinking U will be more friendly.

Don't be nervous, They r all just students and people like u And when u talk they listen. Take ur time and say what u want to say. Don't think too much. Just say it fast, Say whatever u want fast. Cuz if u kept on thinking u will start becoming shy And nervous When u over think it.

It doesn't matter what u say as long u talk. Then U will find things in common and they will respond to what u say and thats how a conversations happens.

U might not be friends with them but it'd be a good exercise for u to work on ur social skills, and later on u will make friends if u just started talking. Don't over think.

Meaning of Life

Does life has a meaning? other than just live it and be with the ones you love? the answer is No, there is no other reason. Except sometimes we wonder if our lives have a meaning.

Someday we are going to die and then what? Well, no one knows. But I think everyone should believe in God and stay honest to themselves. With whatever you are doing with your life... wither you are a homeless, or a thief, or a drug dealer, or whatever.. Stay safe and try to find a meaning for your lives or a purpose. Don't just give up or think you are alone because we all live in this fucked up world. But we have to stay strong and fight to stay alive.

I don't know why we are in this world, but we are and for that we have to fulfill our lives until the last day we are here on earth.

We all should find a purpose for our lives. Sit alone and think about it, and you would figure it out even if it takes years. As for me, I have no fucking idea what I want from Life, I just live and see what's going to happen.

Good Luck to everyone who are having a hard time in their lives. I wish I can help everyone.

Canadian Beer

''Molson Canadian'' bottle

Today I tried the Canadian Beer ''Molson Canadian'' for the first time. And guess what? I liked it.
It was 5% alcohol but the beer tasted a bit strong and alcoholic of course, and it wasn't light as Corona beer that is delicious to drink but it is so light and doesn't effect me. If I was drinking Corona, I might as well be drinking juice because of how light and weak effect Corona beer has on me.
So I just wanted to tell you guys how amazing the Canadian beer is... Strong and refreshing and it may be only 5% alcohol but it taste good and you would feel the alcohol effect when you drink it, even if it was little.

Try it and see for yourself!  

Treating Ingrown Hair!

''Epillyss: Care off'' and ''Equate: Moisturizing Lotion for Skin Relief'' 

I'm using these products to help treat my ingrown hair, I don't know if they are 100% helping but they are helping a little I guess. It doesn't hurt to try as well. 

Since the skin with ingrown hair is dry and itchy, we have to keep it moisturized and hydrated. And the best way to do that is by using Moisturizing creams and cleanser that can removes the dirt and dead skin cells that lead to breakouts and block the pores of hair. Moreover, exfoliating the ingrown hairs is really good too... at least that's what the spa told me. But from my experience, it feels good when you exfoliate your skin using an exfoliating towel and a body wash during shower. 

''Epillyss: Care off'' is a good treatment for ingrown hair but it can burn a bit at first when you put it on the ingrown hairs but it's a good healer. ''Equate: Moisturizing Lotion'' relieves the dry and irritated skin, it keeps the skin moisturized for 24 hours and relieves your skin from itching. ''Clean & Clear: daily pore cleaner'' is good to remove dead skin cells and open the pores of hair and remove dirt.

So if you ever suffered from ingrown hair after shaving or waxing, try those products. It may help you and reduce the pain. 

Living Near the CN tower

Living downtown has its advantages. Not only all the best places are near, but the CN tower is near as well. And I'm in love with the CN tower!

I like how it looks like and I like it when it lights at night. Looking at it makes me happy. I used to watch it in pictures and TV shows but now I can see it in real.

It's like a dream come true.

Butt wax and Gay Village

Yonge-Dundas Square in Downtown Toronto

Few days ago,

I've went to a spa to get my hairy butt waxed for the first time, and it was amazing and not that painful. Too bad now i'm suffering from ingrown hair. Ugh! God we all know how annoying and disturbing it is! Itchy and ugly and gross. Very gross. They told me it is normal since it was my first time and my skin is not used to waxing. But once I wax few more times, my hair will get thinner and my skin will get use to waxing hopefully. Then maybe I won't suffer that much from ingrown hairs.

Any who,
I came passed the gay village in toronto on my way to the spa and got to a salon there to shave my facial hair. Good service. In downtown toronto, everything is close and you can walk to whereever you want. This is one of the many good things about toronto. While other cities are a mess and all good and best places are not usually in downtown but in the whole city, it makes it diffucult for others who drive or take the subway to get around 'cause of how far places are. But here in toronto, once you are in downtown you are near all the best places and can walk to them all or at least most of them. I came across many good places while walking to the spa, "clubs for sure, strip club, bars, adult stores, etc". Downtown is a really huge area and it is filled with many cool places.

Wellesley Street in the gay village(Church and Wellesley) 

Back to the real subject of this post, waxing.. As long you don't have much hair on your skin, it won't hurt a lot. The one who waxed me was so gentle and nice. Moreover, Epillyss products are good. Also when you wax more, your hair will become thinner and it will grow more slowly.

So I advice everyone who does not like their hairy bodies or in any area of your body that you want it smooth, be brave and wax. Don't chicken out, waxing is not that painful. Besides, when you don't have much hair, it will not hurt a lot. So if you have much hair, it will only hurt the first time but when you wax every month, your skin will get used to it and you will have few hairs every time you wax.

Gay radar is real

It's funny but it's real atleast that what i think. Ever since i came to Toronto, i see gay guys almost everywhere. Wither i'm walking in the streets or a mall,  i find a hot gay guy & i look at him & he look back at me.  It's like they know that i'm gay and they know that  i know they are too. It's a weird connection. It's like gay guys can know each other. I used to think gay radar is a joke or unreal thing. But now i know it's real! And it's a feeling in ourselves. I just can tell if a guy was gay by the way he dress and his haircuts & hairstyle or just by the way he look, and i'm positive. It is like some kind of vibe coming out of them. It's like some kind of connection between all gays, when i look at any other people for a second they won't look back, but when it comes to looking at other gay guys, they look back even if i looked at them for a second. They give me a strange look like they are wondering about me or checking me out ''is he gay? who is he? I think he is gay, he is hot, he is alright, why is he looking? is he checking me out?''

It's really interesting.

Russia should stop

Today Toronto's LGBT community marched the streets of Toronto to protest what Russia is doing against gay rights and suing Lady Gaga and Madonna because they support gay rights. One of the lawmakers of the anti-gay campaign in Russia, had found out that both Lady Gaga and Madonna did their concerts while using tourists visas instead of work visas, and for that Russia can punish them. I don't know much but I think Russia is being homophobic and they are taking it too far with their anti-gayness and homophobia.

Torontonians wish the Olympics would get pulled from Russia because they don't deserve to benefit from an event when they even don't support human rights. We all wish someday the whole world would be more understanding to homosexuals. But until that day comes all Lesbians, Gays, Bisexuals, Transgenders should fight for who they are and ask for their rights. Don't hide and let the world hear you.

Gay rights are Human rights.

Toronto is the nicest city

I spent a 1 week now in Toronto, and I can tell from now that I'm falling in love with Toronto. Actually, I already fell in love with Toronto.

People are nice here, the city is so beautiful, the trees and grass is everywhere. This city should really be called the city of heaven, because seriously! This city is Perfect, at least for me. People are not racists here, and there are many people from all around the world. It's a multi-cultural city. It's a safe city as well, the crime rate is low. It's really rare these days to find a big city that is safe and doesn't have many crimes happening in it. Thank god for Toronto.

We were in one of the restaurants in Mississauga, my brother forgot his phone in the taxi car that drove us. When the waiters and waitresses and chef heard about that, they tried to let my brother feel better by talking to him and telling him ''it's okay these things happen all the time, there is no need to be sad, We are sorry to hear that, we are sure you will find it, etc.''  Even the chef gave us a free plate of pasta on the house, how kind is that?! That is a first for me. The customers in the restaurant had offered us their phones so we can call my brother's lost phone and we didn't even ask them they just offered! That did not work, since my brother's phone number doesn't work in Canada. Though we had nice strangers around supporting us and tried to help. Then when we were going home and took another taxi, the taxi guy was so nice to us and called the taxi company to tell them about the lost phone. Sadly, that didn't work as well but hey! we tried and people tried to help.

Toronto is sure filled with many good and nice people, sure there are the mean and rude but the good ones are easier to find.

Religion of Awkwardness

It's been 2 days in Toronto, and we (Me & my family) are still not used to Toronto, and not having that much fun unfortunately. And today I had one of my most awkward moments.

First, we had went to this restaurant that had a bar in it, my family is conservative and we are Muslims, so we are not allowed to eat non-''Halal'' meaning meat that wasn't cooked and prepared in an Islamic way. Of course we did not know that the place was going to be for the none-Muslims because we thought it was a middle eastern restaurant which led us to think it might be for Muslims and has halal food. For me, I don't mind I'm not a religious person, but my family are. Specially when it comes to food.

So we enter this restaurant, it was full and crowded and had many people in it. There was no table for us so the nice waiters told us to sit in the bar and wait. Then the bartender asked me ''what would you like to drink?'' and as you all know, I love alcohol but I can't drink with my family. So I said ''No thanks''. I felt kind of guilty because I wanted to drink an alcoholic drink while at the same time I couldn't, all because alcohol is a big deal for my family. I was saying No to myself and to the nice bartender. Even when she asked me if I wanted Water I said no because I just wanted to not let her think that I wouldn't want to drink alchol but I didn't want to drink anything at the moment. I was trying to play it cool,  and not look like one of those closed minded people. Though I respect religious people but it's just not who I am, and I don't like to pretend to be something I am not. It's not fair to me nor others.

After that, They let us sit in a table and gave us the menu, we checked the menu and saw there is no islamic food, so we had to leave the place and walkaway. It  was embarrassing, the nice waitress came twice while she was giving the food orders to other costumers and apologizing to us. She was saying that we need to wait for a second, and she will get back to us after she's done. She was nothing but nice to us, but she had to see us leave. When she was seeing us leaving our table and going outside the restaurant, she said ''It's not for you, isn't it?'' while she was smiling. Then I said to her ''Yeah I'm sorry!'' then she was like ''It's okay!'' and then I felt guilty and said ''I'm sorry'' again!

It was awkward and embarrassing for me, it might not be for my family nor for any other people, but for me it was, because I hate these kind of situations where I have to do something that I don't want to do. Let alone, apologizing for my family's beliefs.

Give Me a Martini!

I want a Dry Martini, so bad! I've never drank a Martini before. I tried Wine, Vodka, Whiskey, Bullfrog, and of course Beer. But I never tried a Martini! I don't even know how it taste! I bet it's delicious. I think the next time I go clubbing or to a bar, I will try a Dry Martini! The Martini that I always see in Movies like James Bond's and TV shows like Sex and the city & Being Erica.

Until I try a Martini, I will keep on imagining it will taste like heaven even though I don't really think that. Did you ever try a Martini? Here is a Dry Martini Recipe that I've read online if you are interested...

''1 2/3 oz gin

1/3 oz dry vermouth

1 Olive

Stir gin and vermouth with ice in a mixing glass. Strain into a cocktail glass, add the olive, and serve.'' 

Nothing but Jealousy

Jealousy,

It's a deadly emotion and a sick thing to have. We all can get jealous sometimes, but some can exaggerate with their jealousy and have serious issues.

I was once with one of my girl friends, driving to an alcohol store to buy some drinks. It took us 50 minutes driving to get near the store, but then her boyfriend called her and when he knew she was with a guy, he threatened us! Telling us he will come and kill us, and we should come back and not go to the store. He was apparently very jealous and doesn't trust his girlfriend. I mean relax! We are just friends. Sometimes I can't believe how closed minded people can be so stupid and ignorant!

Her boyfriend was blinded by jealousy, plus he was already closed minded and think girls can not be friends with guys. What can I say? We live in a messed up world. So after he called, we've returned and came back home with nothing but jealousy. I couldn't believe she got worried and let us drive all the way back with nothing, we didn't even buy any drinks nor even reached the store unfortunately.

People should learn not to be so jealous, it's a normal thing to feel but don't let it control you and overcome you. Otherwise, you will end up to be the crazy jealous boyfriend/girlfriend.

  

Sex Webchats

Many do cyber sex, some think it's good while others' think it's bad. I once tried doing it, but I didn't feel much comfortable. I was worried most of the time if the someone I'm showing my body to will take any pictures or record me! it's dangerous to have cyber sex with strangers. It is best to not do it. But if you are comfortable with it, then hey! It's your choice.

''Cam 2 Cam'' This is how everyone call it, people use video chats and show their bodies to strangers or boyfriends/girlfriends. It's part of our generation's way of having sex, except you are not really having it, just showing it. Sex Video chat is hot and sexy and a bit worrying at the same time, as you know some people are not comfortable with cameras. After all not all of us were born to become Porn stars. It needs a certain talent if you know what I mean. Though I'm not judging the people who do these sort of things, but I still can't find it safe to do them. It's really depends on the person I guess.

The first and only video chat I've ever did was with a stranger, and it was few years ago. I met this guy that wanted me to chat with him on Skype, and then next thing I know.. He is taking his cloths off and so am I! It's funny but there are people who like these kind of things, we are all allowed to have few weird things in ourselves, as long we are not hurting anyone nor ourselves.

Be careful if you do these kind of things, because it can really be dangerous. Only if you want to become a Porn Star, then do whatever you want if you are not afraid to be judged.

First Gay Country Song!

Did you all watch ''All-American Boy'' by Steve Grand? If not yet, then you should go watch it! It's the first GAY country song. I think it's making history. I hope it will succeed more and get many people liking it. So then it would be a normal thing for country songs to have gay themed ones.

The song and video clip tells the story of Steve, a guy who fell in love with a Straight guy! - haven't we all been there before? but then eventually Steve gets turned down sadly which made it more realistic. He had a crush on a guy for too long, it was his straight friend that already had a girlfriend and just thought of Steve as a friend.

So when Steve made a pass and kissed his crush, the bitter moment of confusion and shocking had arrived. And at the end, he knows they will never be more than friends nor even friends maybe.

It's heartbreaking and fun to watch at the same time. Check it out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pjiyjYCwNyY

A Mother's Sacrifice

There was a little girl who came from a poor family. The students in school and people around her always mocked her clothes. She always dreamt she could wear what everyone else could wear. She wanted to wear nice dresses like them. But her family couldn't afford it.

After living a terrible childhood, the girl grew up and got married to a relative from a rich family. But he treated her bad, he always hit her and was travelling away most of the time and was always absent for months. She got three children from him and divorced him. She fought for her children and raised them on her own. She started to work as a teacher to support her family. She fell in love with a guy who tricked her. He was married and didn't leave his wife for her. 

And now years later, her ex-husband is married with four kids from his new Moroccan wife. Her three children had grew up, after she raised them and sacrificed many years for them. She never got married again and she got old and doesn't know what she should do next in her life. 

Life can be unfair and you never know where it takes you. 

Failing in Sex

I met an European guy once on a Sexdate, two years ago. I didn't have much experience then, and still don't! He had a big dick but he was afraid to use it, because he thought I couldn't handle it. So when we were going to start doing it, he was going to put his dick inside me, but he couldn't even get it in. That's Funny, he thought I had a small hole and that I wouldn't have handled it. He was afraid he would hurt me! Also he was tired and had to leave for dinner with his friends later that night, but he wanted to do me first before he had to go. Though it didn't work out. There was no chemistry and he was too nice TOO nice than he should have been 

Sometimes you have to find the right person that you want to have sex with, and if there was no chemistry then it's pointless! You can't have sex without chemistry.

I met the guy online, he told me to meet him in a weird place behind the zoo, it was night and scary and I shouldn't have done it but I've did it anyways. I was surprised when I saw him because he looked much older than the pics that he showed me in the website, so I was shocked at first but then I was over it. He looked old but he was still hot!  Too bad he wasn't into sex that much and maybe he wasn't even horny! He didn't know what he wanted to do. He took me to his house and told me few things about himself, then we tried to have sex. He rimmed me good and I liked it, and he was handsome and nice even though he shouldn't have been that nice. He should have just let us fuck LOL!

 He should not have been too afraid to hurt me. It is sex after all, it has to hurt a little, sometimes a lot when you like it rough.

Hear it from me, sex with a stranger is not that good. There has to be chemistry and you have to like the person you are with. This was just one of my strange experiences that I've learned from them.

''One-night stands can go wrong, and it would be better to avoid them.''

The Edge of Life and Death

Like we hear in the song "the edge of glory" by Lady Gaga, who wrote it about her grandfather's death, we feel that we are stuck living between life and death. But we should enjoy every moment hanging on the edge of them. Sure we will never know what will happen to us after we die and what happened to our loved ones who passed away until death comes to us. But that doesn't mean we should give up on life. We don't like to hear this, but life does really keep on going, and so do us. 

We are hoping when we die, we will meet all our beloved family and friends who passed away. If you lost someone you care about, don't think you will never meet them again because you will. They went before you to a glorious and peaceful place that you will one day go to as well. The ones who died are now in peace. Be happy for them because they now won't suffer in life like we do. They've reached the place where we are all going to someday.

We are on the edge with all our loved ones who passed away.

Try New Things

Why is doing something not ordinary is so surprising and unusual to others? There are people who are not predictable and like to not do the same things every day. Everyone should accept that.

But when our friends and family see us do something they did not expect us to do, they become surprised and look at us like we are some kind of strangers or weirdos. I say everyone can do whatever they want. We don't need to do the same routine everyday just to be safe. We should be able to try new things from time to time. Even if you surprised everyone,  and they were shocked of what you do. Just tell them you are doing what you like to do in your life. That's exactly what I tell my family and friends when I try new things. Like starting to read or write, or trying to stay in shape, or take vitamins and  work out. 

There are even some gays who are 10 % straight and might find women attractive but their friends start to judge them, which is wrong! It is okay if you had changed sometimes. Do whatever feels right for you. Don't let anyone hold you back. 

Whenever you try something new, don't be afraid of the others' reaction.

Let your dark side come out and play!

Too many people are afraid to show their wild sides, fearing that they might look like whores or inappropriate people to others who will start judging them...

Do you ever feel like you have a side that you hide and want it to come out? Sometimes, we can see many different personalities all in one person. Good and nice or rude and mean. Conservative and closed minded or open minded and liberal. ''Rules breaker, uptight, funny, naughty, and serious.'' We really have many sides in ourselves.

We can't decide which side do we want the world to see us with. Whether the world is seeing you as a sexual being or gentle man or a lady, you still wish you can let the world see your other sides too and not judge you for one of your sides. Sometimes people don't act like themselves, because they are scared of others and what they might think of them. Most of us are afraid that people are going to judge us and start thinking that we are whores and have no respect to ourselves. But who gives a shit what everyone else think? All what matters is what you think of yourself.

There is a lot to reconsider and many things to think about. But what if we let everyone see all our sides? Would that be so bad? We always think ''Should I do that? What if I did that? What if I said that? What would others think of me?''

We should do whatever make us comfortable, and the way we want to see ourselves and for the whole world to see us with. Stop thinking about what others might think of you, we can't just stay discreet all the time and hide many things from all the people around us. We have to have a balance between our two different sides. If you were such a good and traditional man or woman, don't be afraid to show your other sides even if you thought they were weird. Show your traditions and your good side but don't be afraid to show your other sides too. The sides where you feel it's more like you, and you would feel more relaxed and comfortable in your own skin. Not to mention, you would feel more like yourself. It is really hard trying to become something you are not.

It is much better when you display all your sides.  And guess what? people will get to know you as who you are, not as someone you are not. Moreover, you will meet friends who might accept everything about you.

I think whatever you do in your life, don't be afraid to show the world all your sides, and let them know who you really are. There is no need to stay hidden for the rest of your life. Remember there are people who will accept you for all your sides. Everyone have many sides, the good ones and the bad ones. But there are others in the world who won't judge you for all your sides, and just accept you as you are.

We are all humans with many personalities.