Changes of life

Who knew life can change a lot? 

Few years ago I was just a student in a crappy school in small town in Saudi. Then I was in Dubai, and now I'm in Toronto! 

The city is vibrant and full of life, it's very liberating. So many people from all around the world are immigrants here and had started a whole life in the country. I can actually see myself few years from now living with my family here and start a life. All the cultures in the world are collided here, and everyone can keep their cultures and respect others' too. This is the beauty of Toronto. Everyone can live the life they want, and no one is here to judge or racist because the immigrants help the city to get better and better. There is life here for everyone. I know that i wouldn't have found a better city than Toronto. It might not be the perfect city but for me it is! I can do whatever I want and experience a whole new freedom that I never did before. 

I never thought the day would come where I'm in a place that I really want to be in.

How to make friends in University

Don't think! Just do as u please and dont give a damn what everyone thinks!! i found that out cuz of drinking. Once u r drunk the shy part of ur brain stop thinking, and u do stuffs without thinking which is good. Becuz u become more friendly and talkative, I read that online too. That drinking shuts down the shyness And makes u more friendly So once u stop thinking U will be more friendly.

Don't be nervous, They r all just students and people like u And when u talk they listen. Take ur time and say what u want to say. Don't think too much. Just say it fast, Say whatever u want fast. Cuz if u kept on thinking u will start becoming shy And nervous When u over think it.

It doesn't matter what u say as long u talk. Then U will find things in common and they will respond to what u say and thats how a conversations happens.

U might not be friends with them but it'd be a good exercise for u to work on ur social skills, and later on u will make friends if u just started talking. Don't over think.

Meaning of Life

Does life has a meaning? other than just live it and be with the ones you love? the answer is No, there is no other reason. Except sometimes we wonder if our lives have a meaning.

Someday we are going to die and then what? Well, no one knows. But I think everyone should believe in God and stay honest to themselves. With whatever you are doing with your life... wither you are a homeless, or a thief, or a drug dealer, or whatever.. Stay safe and try to find a meaning for your lives or a purpose. Don't just give up or think you are alone because we all live in this fucked up world. But we have to stay strong and fight to stay alive.

I don't know why we are in this world, but we are and for that we have to fulfill our lives until the last day we are here on earth.

We all should find a purpose for our lives. Sit alone and think about it, and you would figure it out even if it takes years. As for me, I have no fucking idea what I want from Life, I just live and see what's going to happen.

Good Luck to everyone who are having a hard time in their lives. I wish I can help everyone.

Canadian Beer

''Molson Canadian'' bottle

Today I tried the Canadian Beer ''Molson Canadian'' for the first time. And guess what? I liked it.
It was 5% alcohol but the beer tasted a bit strong and alcoholic of course, and it wasn't light as Corona beer that is delicious to drink but it is so light and doesn't effect me. If I was drinking Corona, I might as well be drinking juice because of how light and weak effect Corona beer has on me.
So I just wanted to tell you guys how amazing the Canadian beer is... Strong and refreshing and it may be only 5% alcohol but it taste good and you would feel the alcohol effect when you drink it, even if it was little.

Try it and see for yourself!  

Treating Ingrown Hair!

''Epillyss: Care off'' and ''Equate: Moisturizing Lotion for Skin Relief'' 

I'm using these products to help treat my ingrown hair, I don't know if they are 100% helping but they are helping a little I guess. It doesn't hurt to try as well. 

Since the skin with ingrown hair is dry and itchy, we have to keep it moisturized and hydrated. And the best way to do that is by using Moisturizing creams and cleanser that can removes the dirt and dead skin cells that lead to breakouts and block the pores of hair. Moreover, exfoliating the ingrown hairs is really good too... at least that's what the spa told me. But from my experience, it feels good when you exfoliate your skin using an exfoliating towel and a body wash during shower. 

''Epillyss: Care off'' is a good treatment for ingrown hair but it can burn a bit at first when you put it on the ingrown hairs but it's a good healer. ''Equate: Moisturizing Lotion'' relieves the dry and irritated skin, it keeps the skin moisturized for 24 hours and relieves your skin from itching. ''Clean & Clear: daily pore cleaner'' is good to remove dead skin cells and open the pores of hair and remove dirt.

So if you ever suffered from ingrown hair after shaving or waxing, try those products. It may help you and reduce the pain. 

Living Near the CN tower

Living downtown has its advantages. Not only all the best places are near, but the CN tower is near as well. And I'm in love with the CN tower!

I like how it looks like and I like it when it lights at night. Looking at it makes me happy. I used to watch it in pictures and TV shows but now I can see it in real.

It's like a dream come true.

Butt wax and Gay Village

Yonge-Dundas Square in Downtown Toronto

Few days ago,

I've went to a spa to get my hairy butt waxed for the first time, and it was amazing and not that painful. Too bad now i'm suffering from ingrown hair. Ugh! God we all know how annoying and disturbing it is! Itchy and ugly and gross. Very gross. They told me it is normal since it was my first time and my skin is not used to waxing. But once I wax few more times, my hair will get thinner and my skin will get use to waxing hopefully. Then maybe I won't suffer that much from ingrown hairs.

Any who,
I came passed the gay village in toronto on my way to the spa and got to a salon there to shave my facial hair. Good service. In downtown toronto, everything is close and you can walk to whereever you want. This is one of the many good things about toronto. While other cities are a mess and all good and best places are not usually in downtown but in the whole city, it makes it diffucult for others who drive or take the subway to get around 'cause of how far places are. But here in toronto, once you are in downtown you are near all the best places and can walk to them all or at least most of them. I came across many good places while walking to the spa, "clubs for sure, strip club, bars, adult stores, etc". Downtown is a really huge area and it is filled with many cool places.

Wellesley Street in the gay village(Church and Wellesley) 

Back to the real subject of this post, waxing.. As long you don't have much hair on your skin, it won't hurt a lot. The one who waxed me was so gentle and nice. Moreover, Epillyss products are good. Also when you wax more, your hair will become thinner and it will grow more slowly.

So I advice everyone who does not like their hairy bodies or in any area of your body that you want it smooth, be brave and wax. Don't chicken out, waxing is not that painful. Besides, when you don't have much hair, it will not hurt a lot. So if you have much hair, it will only hurt the first time but when you wax every month, your skin will get used to it and you will have few hairs every time you wax.

Gay radar is real

It's funny but it's real atleast that what i think. Ever since i came to Toronto, i see gay guys almost everywhere. Wither i'm walking in the streets or a mall,  i find a hot gay guy & i look at him & he look back at me.  It's like they know that i'm gay and they know that  i know they are too. It's a weird connection. It's like gay guys can know each other. I used to think gay radar is a joke or unreal thing. But now i know it's real! And it's a feeling in ourselves. I just can tell if a guy was gay by the way he dress and his haircuts & hairstyle or just by the way he look, and i'm positive. It is like some kind of vibe coming out of them. It's like some kind of connection between all gays, when i look at any other people for a second they won't look back, but when it comes to looking at other gay guys, they look back even if i looked at them for a second. They give me a strange look like they are wondering about me or checking me out ''is he gay? who is he? I think he is gay, he is hot, he is alright, why is he looking? is he checking me out?''

It's really interesting.

Russia should stop

Today Toronto's LGBT community marched the streets of Toronto to protest what Russia is doing against gay rights and suing Lady Gaga and Madonna because they support gay rights. One of the lawmakers of the anti-gay campaign in Russia, had found out that both Lady Gaga and Madonna did their concerts while using tourists visas instead of work visas, and for that Russia can punish them. I don't know much but I think Russia is being homophobic and they are taking it too far with their anti-gayness and homophobia.

Torontonians wish the Olympics would get pulled from Russia because they don't deserve to benefit from an event when they even don't support human rights. We all wish someday the whole world would be more understanding to homosexuals. But until that day comes all Lesbians, Gays, Bisexuals, Transgenders should fight for who they are and ask for their rights. Don't hide and let the world hear you.

Gay rights are Human rights.

Toronto is the nicest city

I spent a 1 week now in Toronto, and I can tell from now that I'm falling in love with Toronto. Actually, I already fell in love with Toronto.

People are nice here, the city is so beautiful, the trees and grass is everywhere. This city should really be called the city of heaven, because seriously! This city is Perfect, at least for me. People are not racists here, and there are many people from all around the world. It's a multi-cultural city. It's a safe city as well, the crime rate is low. It's really rare these days to find a big city that is safe and doesn't have many crimes happening in it. Thank god for Toronto.

We were in one of the restaurants in Mississauga, my brother forgot his phone in the taxi car that drove us. When the waiters and waitresses and chef heard about that, they tried to let my brother feel better by talking to him and telling him ''it's okay these things happen all the time, there is no need to be sad, We are sorry to hear that, we are sure you will find it, etc.''  Even the chef gave us a free plate of pasta on the house, how kind is that?! That is a first for me. The customers in the restaurant had offered us their phones so we can call my brother's lost phone and we didn't even ask them they just offered! That did not work, since my brother's phone number doesn't work in Canada. Though we had nice strangers around supporting us and tried to help. Then when we were going home and took another taxi, the taxi guy was so nice to us and called the taxi company to tell them about the lost phone. Sadly, that didn't work as well but hey! we tried and people tried to help.

Toronto is sure filled with many good and nice people, sure there are the mean and rude but the good ones are easier to find.

Religion of Awkwardness

It's been 2 days in Toronto, and we (Me & my family) are still not used to Toronto, and not having that much fun unfortunately. And today I had one of my most awkward moments.

First, we had went to this restaurant that had a bar in it, my family is conservative and we are Muslims, so we are not allowed to eat non-''Halal'' meaning meat that wasn't cooked and prepared in an Islamic way. Of course we did not know that the place was going to be for the none-Muslims because we thought it was a middle eastern restaurant which led us to think it might be for Muslims and has halal food. For me, I don't mind I'm not a religious person, but my family are. Specially when it comes to food.

So we enter this restaurant, it was full and crowded and had many people in it. There was no table for us so the nice waiters told us to sit in the bar and wait. Then the bartender asked me ''what would you like to drink?'' and as you all know, I love alcohol but I can't drink with my family. So I said ''No thanks''. I felt kind of guilty because I wanted to drink an alcoholic drink while at the same time I couldn't, all because alcohol is a big deal for my family. I was saying No to myself and to the nice bartender. Even when she asked me if I wanted Water I said no because I just wanted to not let her think that I wouldn't want to drink alchol but I didn't want to drink anything at the moment. I was trying to play it cool,  and not look like one of those closed minded people. Though I respect religious people but it's just not who I am, and I don't like to pretend to be something I am not. It's not fair to me nor others.

After that, They let us sit in a table and gave us the menu, we checked the menu and saw there is no islamic food, so we had to leave the place and walkaway. It  was embarrassing, the nice waitress came twice while she was giving the food orders to other costumers and apologizing to us. She was saying that we need to wait for a second, and she will get back to us after she's done. She was nothing but nice to us, but she had to see us leave. When she was seeing us leaving our table and going outside the restaurant, she said ''It's not for you, isn't it?'' while she was smiling. Then I said to her ''Yeah I'm sorry!'' then she was like ''It's okay!'' and then I felt guilty and said ''I'm sorry'' again!

It was awkward and embarrassing for me, it might not be for my family nor for any other people, but for me it was, because I hate these kind of situations where I have to do something that I don't want to do. Let alone, apologizing for my family's beliefs.

Give Me a Martini!

I want a Dry Martini, so bad! I've never drank a Martini before. I tried Wine, Vodka, Whiskey, Bullfrog, and of course Beer. But I never tried a Martini! I don't even know how it taste! I bet it's delicious. I think the next time I go clubbing or to a bar, I will try a Dry Martini! The Martini that I always see in Movies like James Bond's and TV shows like Sex and the city & Being Erica.

Until I try a Martini, I will keep on imagining it will taste like heaven even though I don't really think that. Did you ever try a Martini? Here is a Dry Martini Recipe that I've read online if you are interested...

''1 2/3 oz gin

1/3 oz dry vermouth

1 Olive

Stir gin and vermouth with ice in a mixing glass. Strain into a cocktail glass, add the olive, and serve.'' 

Nothing but Jealousy

Jealousy,

It's a deadly emotion and a sick thing to have. We all can get jealous sometimes, but some can exaggerate with their jealousy and have serious issues.

I was once with one of my girl friends, driving to an alcohol store to buy some drinks. It took us 50 minutes driving to get near the store, but then her boyfriend called her and when he knew she was with a guy, he threatened us! Telling us he will come and kill us, and we should come back and not go to the store. He was apparently very jealous and doesn't trust his girlfriend. I mean relax! We are just friends. Sometimes I can't believe how closed minded people can be so stupid and ignorant!

Her boyfriend was blinded by jealousy, plus he was already closed minded and think girls can not be friends with guys. What can I say? We live in a messed up world. So after he called, we've returned and came back home with nothing but jealousy. I couldn't believe she got worried and let us drive all the way back with nothing, we didn't even buy any drinks nor even reached the store unfortunately.

People should learn not to be so jealous, it's a normal thing to feel but don't let it control you and overcome you. Otherwise, you will end up to be the crazy jealous boyfriend/girlfriend.

  

Sex Webchats

Many do cyber sex, some think it's good while others' think it's bad. I once tried doing it, but I didn't feel much comfortable. I was worried most of the time if the someone I'm showing my body to will take any pictures or record me! it's dangerous to have cyber sex with strangers. It is best to not do it. But if you are comfortable with it, then hey! It's your choice.

''Cam 2 Cam'' This is how everyone call it, people use video chats and show their bodies to strangers or boyfriends/girlfriends. It's part of our generation's way of having sex, except you are not really having it, just showing it. Sex Video chat is hot and sexy and a bit worrying at the same time, as you know some people are not comfortable with cameras. After all not all of us were born to become Porn stars. It needs a certain talent if you know what I mean. Though I'm not judging the people who do these sort of things, but I still can't find it safe to do them. It's really depends on the person I guess.

The first and only video chat I've ever did was with a stranger, and it was few years ago. I met this guy that wanted me to chat with him on Skype, and then next thing I know.. He is taking his cloths off and so am I! It's funny but there are people who like these kind of things, we are all allowed to have few weird things in ourselves, as long we are not hurting anyone nor ourselves.

Be careful if you do these kind of things, because it can really be dangerous. Only if you want to become a Porn Star, then do whatever you want if you are not afraid to be judged.

First Gay Country Song!

Did you all watch ''All-American Boy'' by Steve Grand? If not yet, then you should go watch it! It's the first GAY country song. I think it's making history. I hope it will succeed more and get many people liking it. So then it would be a normal thing for country songs to have gay themed ones.

The song and video clip tells the story of Steve, a guy who fell in love with a Straight guy! - haven't we all been there before? but then eventually Steve gets turned down sadly which made it more realistic. He had a crush on a guy for too long, it was his straight friend that already had a girlfriend and just thought of Steve as a friend.

So when Steve made a pass and kissed his crush, the bitter moment of confusion and shocking had arrived. And at the end, he knows they will never be more than friends nor even friends maybe.

It's heartbreaking and fun to watch at the same time. Check it out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pjiyjYCwNyY

A Mother's Sacrifice

There was a little girl who came from a poor family. The students in school and people around her always mocked her clothes. She always dreamt she could wear what everyone else could wear. She wanted to wear nice dresses like them. But her family couldn't afford it.

After living a terrible childhood, the girl grew up and got married to a relative from a rich family. But he treated her bad, he always hit her and was travelling away most of the time and was always absent for months. She got three children from him and divorced him. She fought for her children and raised them on her own. She started to work as a teacher to support her family. She fell in love with a guy who tricked her. He was married and didn't leave his wife for her. 

And now years later, her ex-husband is married with four kids from his new Moroccan wife. Her three children had grew up, after she raised them and sacrificed many years for them. She never got married again and she got old and doesn't know what she should do next in her life. 

Life can be unfair and you never know where it takes you. 

Failing in Sex

I met an European guy once on a Sexdate, two years ago. I didn't have much experience then, and still don't! He had a big dick but he was afraid to use it, because he thought I couldn't handle it. So when we were going to start doing it, he was going to put his dick inside me, but he couldn't even get it in. That's Funny, he thought I had a small hole and that I wouldn't have handled it. He was afraid he would hurt me! Also he was tired and had to leave for dinner with his friends later that night, but he wanted to do me first before he had to go. Though it didn't work out. There was no chemistry and he was too nice TOO nice than he should have been 

Sometimes you have to find the right person that you want to have sex with, and if there was no chemistry then it's pointless! You can't have sex without chemistry.

I met the guy online, he told me to meet him in a weird place behind the zoo, it was night and scary and I shouldn't have done it but I've did it anyways. I was surprised when I saw him because he looked much older than the pics that he showed me in the website, so I was shocked at first but then I was over it. He looked old but he was still hot!  Too bad he wasn't into sex that much and maybe he wasn't even horny! He didn't know what he wanted to do. He took me to his house and told me few things about himself, then we tried to have sex. He rimmed me good and I liked it, and he was handsome and nice even though he shouldn't have been that nice. He should have just let us fuck LOL!

 He should not have been too afraid to hurt me. It is sex after all, it has to hurt a little, sometimes a lot when you like it rough.

Hear it from me, sex with a stranger is not that good. There has to be chemistry and you have to like the person you are with. This was just one of my strange experiences that I've learned from them.

''One-night stands can go wrong, and it would be better to avoid them.''

The Edge of Life and Death

Like we hear in the song "the edge of glory" by Lady Gaga, who wrote it about her grandfather's death, we feel that we are stuck living between life and death. But we should enjoy every moment hanging on the edge of them. Sure we will never know what will happen to us after we die and what happened to our loved ones who passed away until death comes to us. But that doesn't mean we should give up on life. We don't like to hear this, but life does really keep on going, and so do us. 

We are hoping when we die, we will meet all our beloved family and friends who passed away. If you lost someone you care about, don't think you will never meet them again because you will. They went before you to a glorious and peaceful place that you will one day go to as well. The ones who died are now in peace. Be happy for them because they now won't suffer in life like we do. They've reached the place where we are all going to someday.

We are on the edge with all our loved ones who passed away.

Try New Things

Why is doing something not ordinary is so surprising and unusual to others? There are people who are not predictable and like to not do the same things every day. Everyone should accept that.

But when our friends and family see us do something they did not expect us to do, they become surprised and look at us like we are some kind of strangers or weirdos. I say everyone can do whatever they want. We don't need to do the same routine everyday just to be safe. We should be able to try new things from time to time. Even if you surprised everyone,  and they were shocked of what you do. Just tell them you are doing what you like to do in your life. That's exactly what I tell my family and friends when I try new things. Like starting to read or write, or trying to stay in shape, or take vitamins and  work out. 

There are even some gays who are 10 % straight and might find women attractive but their friends start to judge them, which is wrong! It is okay if you had changed sometimes. Do whatever feels right for you. Don't let anyone hold you back. 

Whenever you try something new, don't be afraid of the others' reaction.

Let your dark side come out and play!

Too many people are afraid to show their wild sides, fearing that they might look like whores or inappropriate people to others who will start judging them...

Do you ever feel like you have a side that you hide and want it to come out? Sometimes, we can see many different personalities all in one person. Good and nice or rude and mean. Conservative and closed minded or open minded and liberal. ''Rules breaker, uptight, funny, naughty, and serious.'' We really have many sides in ourselves.

We can't decide which side do we want the world to see us with. Whether the world is seeing you as a sexual being or gentle man or a lady, you still wish you can let the world see your other sides too and not judge you for one of your sides. Sometimes people don't act like themselves, because they are scared of others and what they might think of them. Most of us are afraid that people are going to judge us and start thinking that we are whores and have no respect to ourselves. But who gives a shit what everyone else think? All what matters is what you think of yourself.

There is a lot to reconsider and many things to think about. But what if we let everyone see all our sides? Would that be so bad? We always think ''Should I do that? What if I did that? What if I said that? What would others think of me?''

We should do whatever make us comfortable, and the way we want to see ourselves and for the whole world to see us with. Stop thinking about what others might think of you, we can't just stay discreet all the time and hide many things from all the people around us. We have to have a balance between our two different sides. If you were such a good and traditional man or woman, don't be afraid to show your other sides even if you thought they were weird. Show your traditions and your good side but don't be afraid to show your other sides too. The sides where you feel it's more like you, and you would feel more relaxed and comfortable in your own skin. Not to mention, you would feel more like yourself. It is really hard trying to become something you are not.

It is much better when you display all your sides.  And guess what? people will get to know you as who you are, not as someone you are not. Moreover, you will meet friends who might accept everything about you.

I think whatever you do in your life, don't be afraid to show the world all your sides, and let them know who you really are. There is no need to stay hidden for the rest of your life. Remember there are people who will accept you for all your sides. Everyone have many sides, the good ones and the bad ones. But there are others in the world who won't judge you for all your sides, and just accept you as you are.

We are all humans with many personalities. 

Different People

It doesn't matter what's your nationality nor which sexuality and gender you are. No matter where you are from, you will always have your own personality 'cause every individual is a special case. 

You can meet people from all around the world that are different than each others. Every person has their own beliefs and things they like or dislike. You can meet people from the same country but they are totally different and has nothing in common except they are from the same country. We always forget and assume that people from the same country are going to have same personalities and beliefs because they come from the same culture. But that is not true. As I said, every person is different and special, no matter where they are from. It is the same with sexuality,  whether you are Gay, Straight or Bi, you will have your own personality and what turns you on. Of course, we might find few things in common but that doesn't mean we are all the same. Not all gays are the same and not all bisexuals nor straights are the same. 

Just remember do not judge people by their skin color or  nationality or even sexuality. Because we are all human beings. We have our own lives and lifestyles and experiences, and the way we were raised and the culture we come from.

Death In Our Future

Death and future. We wonder when our time would come and how we are all going to die. We live the present and forget that we are going to die someday too. But what if you knew when are you going to die? What would you do? Will you just let yourself die when it's your time, or are you going to save yourself and avoid your death? However, no one can escape death.

Many people live their lives and want to live forever. We sometimes leave things for later, thinking we might do them in the future. But time passes us and life's difficulties happen and life changes us and our lives. What we have to do is to live the present and forget about our deaths. And accept the fact that we will die someday. Whether we love our lives and try to enjoy every minute of it. Trying to become something of ourselves, Or we are having troubles in life and wanting to die. Just know that we won't live forever. 

So no matter what happens, just live your life in the present. We can't live the past nor the future. But we can live our present.

Victims are Criminals

We've been waiting in the police station for hours now, I started to get tired and sick of everything. All because of the attackers on my family we've all went to the station because the attackers filed a report on us. And now we don't know who will win this case. 

My best friend is in the hospital because he is sick and i haven't talked to him in 2 days. Me and my bro and mother, sister,father are all now waiting in a depressing boring waiting room. The air conditioner in the room, looked old and wasn't working but my sis Judy tried to turn it on and it worked. The weather is so hot and unbearable.  Good thing after this is all over, we r going to Toronto and I'll begin studying there.  First i will get to know the city of Toronto and then the fall semester will start. 

I still can't believe my mother Tara and sister Judy were one day in a mall and needed a phone to call our driver, and they asked the wrong people "a three women" who treated them bad  like they were bugs. they pushed them and refused to help and started to call them names and made fun of them. And that's when a man probably one of the women's husband came. He attacked them and spitted on them, and the women and man spilled Pepsi on them and insulted them. The guy even punched my sister on the face. And now this lead us to where we are now! Like we are some kind of criminals. He is suing us even though we are Victims!

When Law Turn Against You

Law and order. When an attacker thinks he's a victim. And a victim who has no idea how did that happen. How did the victim become the criminal, and the criminal become a victim? What happen next? Does the victim gets his right? Or does the criminal really think he's a victim?  U feel like u know an incident n how it happened, but apparently there are more versions for incidents. People who witness it n their point of view, criminal who think he did the right thing, and the victim who think his right was taken from him and got attacked while protecting his right.  Life is unfair and we sometimes never get what we deserve. It's something that may happen to everyone. Sometimes the law can get it wrong, and u end up losing a case. But never give up, maybe things will turn around and if u lost someday, u may win another day. After my mother and sister got attacked and hit by a man and three women. The guy went to sue my family and filed a report. Can u imagine? One who did wrong think he done good. How can that happen? It's a messed up situation for everyone. Who may win the case and who may lose? We never know what will happen. But we have to have some faith in ourselves and fight for our rights no matter what. And who knows? Maybe u will get it. Justice may get served.                    

If u asked someone for help one day, and they treated u bad and attacked u. What would u do? Just be sure u ask the right people. U sure don't want to be a victim of asking the wrong people for help.

Pictures Are Tricky

Everything looks better in pictures, but life is not a picture. It takes some efforts for a person to deal with the area that surrounding everything around it. When we see life in a picture, like a picture of nature or a city. We look and say it is beautiful, but what we don't realize is that a picture can't tell everything about the place. Because when you go to the area, you will find a picture was just a picture, and it only told u half of the area. We won't know how the weather is and how is the atmosphere there, unless we go to where the pictures were taken. Like for example, if you saw a pictures of Dubai u might feel like it is the perfect place to live but when u go to it u will find the pictures were really just pictures. It is a normal city as it is. it is not a heaven, just like it's not when u see a picture of a jungle or a park. When u visit Dubai, it wont be like in the pictures. The weather  would be so hot, the building are tall but not that tall cause at the end of the day u wont be living a skyline or a view. U would be living the life there. So when you see pictures of anything don't assume u know everything about the place in the picture. You have to go there and see for yourself.

The People Behind Your Back

I have a friend who thinks a group of people are talking bad about her behind her back. These things happen most of the time, and it's a very normal thing for insecure people to do. When they feel insecure about themselves, they judge others and talk bad about them. I think if there are some people who are talking behind your back, let them stay where they belong, ''Behind Your Back''. 

Just forget about the people you dislike. Do not care about them nor what they say. And Who knows? Maybe you think they talk bad about you because you hate these group of people, so you think they are talking about you. There is no need for you to think about them. Why would you think about them when they mean nothing to you? So don't give a shit about what they say. And if they are really talking about you behind your back, then let them stay where they belong ''behind your back''. Don't let them bring you down.

Ignore those people who like to gossip. Let yourself get busy by doing other things, and you will eventually forget about them. These insecure people just want to bring a person down. If they didn't pick on you, they will find another one to pick on. They apparently have no lives and nothing better to do except making others feel bad about themselves. So don't feel bad about yourself, these people are not worth it. They might just envy others' good qualities.

Smile and let the world say what they want to say. If you are happy and enjoying your life, why would you care about the people's gossips? 

Live your life the way you want, not the way others want you to live.

Can't we rely on someone?

We try our best to have faith in others and ourselves. We ask people to help us sometimes and give us a hand, but sometimes they may let us down, even families and friends.

When we ask our friends for help and they let us down, we can't help but wonder if we can actually rely on them or even others. While in some situations a friend may end up helping us, other moments where they end up failing us. When you get lost and end up asking strangers for directions, they whether end up helping you or couldn't even benefit you. It is the same thing when you ask friends or families for a little help, they may help you or couldn't help. At the end of the day, you should remember they are just humans like you, and they make mistakes too. Like if a friend tried to help you and give you want you need, but then bailed out and couldn't help. Just remember maybe your friends really couldn't help you, not because  they didn't want to help. We sure know that but we can easily forget it sometimes and get mad at them. But It would be your fault if you relied completely on your friends. Because the only one you can completely rely on is... Yourself.

Sure friends and families may always have your back in situations but you will not find them there all the time, you have to have some faith in yourself and try to help yourself without asking anyone for help. But if you had to ask and absolutely needed help, then you should ask. But if they couldn't help try not be so disappointed.

So try to help yourself most of times because you may not find help from others all the time. You may not have your friends and families around you all the time, but you are for sure will always have yourself. In most situations, you are on your own. 

Of course, one person can't do everything on his/her own so we end up asking for help, but we should not completely count on the help we may get.

Gay Pride Week

It is Pride Week in Toronto. All Gays come out to play and march the streets of Toronto. Drag queens, Lesbians, and Gay guys, all come together to celebrate themselves and show the city and world how pride they are of being gay. Pride Week in Toronto is one of the largest gay pride festivals in the world and one of the largest festivals in North America. It is a celebration of the diversity of the LGBT community in the Greater Toronto Area. The 2013 Pride had started at June 21, and it will keep on going until the 30th. While over one million people come to attend it. 

The main events of the festival are a Dyke March, Trans March, and the Pride Parade. the center of Pride Week is at gay village ''Church and Wellesley''. Both the Dyke March and the main Pride Parade start at the Village and head toward Yonge Street, Gerrard Street and Bloor Street. So if you are in Toronto, join the parade and celebrate gay pride with millions of people. There are contests for everyone to join and have some fun. 

    

Happy Pride Week, Everyone! 

We are all one big nation, and we are proud of who we are.

Check out the official guide http://www.intorontomag.com/index.php/news-insight/199-the-2013-official-pride-toronto-guide

TRP360: Virtual Toronto in Second Life

Do you play Second Life? There is a Toronto Sim in the popular online game ''Second Life''. The location is called TRP360 and you can find it in the game. The place is based on Toronto's downtown, and it's very similar to the real thing. There are many fun things to do in the virtual Toronto, like riding taxis, streetcars, and taking the subway to get around the area. You can try the Fun House to drive race cars and motorcycles. Also You will find the CN tower there too. If you are interested check out this website at http://www.trp360.com and if you are new to Second Life then visit the game's website http://www.secondlife.com

You Control Your Own Life

Life does not control us, and we can not control it.

Life does not change our fates, we change it by the choices we make. It is our decisions that lead us to where we go in Life. Sometimes It is fate, and sometimes it's god's way of showing us what's right for us. You know what they say, ''when god closes a door, somewhere he opens a window of opportunity.''  

You should never give up in life, because you never know how things turn out to be, and when is the things are going to turn around again. Future may not be something for granted. And you never know how it will turn out. But we can always look for the best and enjoy the current moments of our lives, while still hoping for the best in the future. Someday you may lose your job, but then find a better job opportunity. Sometimes you may not succeed in a career but then you may find a better one. If you didn't have the time to graduate from college before, you can enter it again and graduate. If you majored in the wrong major, you can go back to university and choose another major. And if you are working to get the enough money so you can go to college, then keep up the good work. And if you don't want to go to college, then don't go. Who knows maybe you will find a better opportunity. Life is full of surprises. Oh and if you were in a bad university and a bad town, then try to transfer yourself to somewhere better, like Toronto. It does not matter what you work as long you reach where you want to, and as long it is safe and you collect the money you need.

It's never too late to turn your life around.

Secrets we are not meant to find

Me and the actress Amanda Bynes might be soul mates LOL! Just few hours before Amanda tweeted something I was actually thinking of, I was thinking about the little secrets we may not like to find about the people we love and know. I'm hiding few secrets of my own from my family and friends, and I do not hide because I'm afraid of them, it is because I'm afraid for them to find out secrets they may not like. Everyone needs secrets.

''If you go digging for something that's not yours to find out, don't blame anyone other than yourself if you don't like what you find.'' - Amanda Bynes' tweet.

I could not agree more! That was exactly what I was thinking of. My family sometimes are too eager to know everything about me, like my pass code for my iPhone or the password for my laptop. Or They want to know what I write in my blog! And all I could think of is ''hey! I'm allowed to keep few secrets for myself, besides I'm not hiding things from them because I'm afraid of their reaction, I'm hiding because they will sure not like what they may find. plus there is something called privacy.''  My laptop have porn in it, my phone has sex conversations and nasty jokes with my friend, and my blog is about Sex & Alcohol. - And hey! I'm not ashamed. 

I borrowed my 16 years old brother's phone yesterday. And for example, I could have checked everything in his phone but I was too afraid of what I may find. I may not like it and ruin my innocent little brother's image inside my head. Moreover, it would be awkward if I found out something I shouldn't have found or not for me to find and know. Like what if I searched in his phone and saw him and his friends sharing porn pictures or saying nasty jokes? LOL!

There are few little secrets that we should not find out about. It is not because we can not handle the truth, but there are few things that are not for us to find out about. We should not know every little detail about the people we know. We are not meant to dig deep in others' lives, because we may really not like what we may find and ruin their images inside our heads. Sometimes, it is good to keep secrets from people in our lives that they do not need to know about.

  

Unless if you were keeping a secret from your wife for 18 years that you are secretly gay like in ''Happily Divorced''. - Does Anyone watch this show? No? Just me! Okay. then you should come out!

You never know, she might divorce you and you two can become best friends. - nah! I don't think so.

''You will never believe the things that I have done, I will have you run, if you knew single one of all the things that I've done.'' - April Smith, Terrible Things.

The Fucked up Saudi Arabia

My sister and mom were living in Saudi Arabia. They went to a mall there in Dammam. After they finished from the mall, they were waiting outside the mall for their driver to come. They needed to use the phone to call him but the one they had, had ran out of battery. So they went to ask some women there for their mobile just to call the driver, the women refused and insulted them. A strange Saudi man, who was apparently related somehow to the women, had came and insulted my mom and sister. They insulted him back, but then the people gathered up and started to push my mom and sister away from the guy and defending him. Just because he was a man and women should not fight with men. He and the rude women had attacked my mom and sister, they even split Pepsi on them and spitted on their faces. Furthermore, the guy hit my sister by punching her in the face! People were defending the man because he was a man, not a woman. Guys had started to grab my sister and mom to take them away. Strange women came too and yelled at mom told her to take her daughter and go away. A stupid woman who was all covered up and wearing gloves went to the security guy for no reason, just to tell him to go arrest my mom and sister! The security guy went to their driver who just arrived. He opened the door of the vehicle while the driver was inside it. He wanted to take the car keys from the driver and insult him, just because the driver was a foreigner from Philippine and looked weak but my sister didn't allow him to do that. Even the security was insane and racist.

The cloak my sister was wearing on her hair had fell, after she got punched and she didn't realize that. People started to look at her like she was a whore and a bug, just because of that. Just because the cloak on her hair had fell and her hair was revealed. The securities just started to close the roads instead of helping. My sister was going to take a picture of the guy who hit her, and the license plate number in front of his car so she can report him. He and the three women got inside his car and started to drive away. People were covering the car license to protect him. They were covering the car license so my sister won't take a picture of his car's number and report him! Again, another group of people came and were defending the guy too, and they pushed my sister and mom away from the car. For them, Women can not talk to strange guys, that they are not related to, and start a fight. Women in Saudi are treated like bugs sometimes, while Men are treated like a First-class citizens. What happened was cruel and injustice.

Saudi Arabia has a fucked up society.

The one that got lost in New Year's Eve

It was New year's eve,

I promised my friends I will attend their party at a friends' house. Everything was going according to plan, I was going to meet them at their home in ''The Address, Dubai Mall.'' on 7PM. I was going to take my sister with me but she was busy studying for her finals - yup! In new year's eve! cruel world. So she was only going to come with me and stay for a while then leave. But when me and my sister got in our car, we found out that it could not move; The car's battery was dead because apparently my sister forgot the lights on when she parked it in the morning after returning from the university. From all nights of the year, my sister had to forget the lights on in New Year's eve. So we needed to call a friend to come pick us up and at least drive us to the near metro station. Dubai Mall was about 15-20 minutes drive from our apartment, but in new year's eve traffics it will take hours to reach there. So I had to use the metro to get there. My sister could not come, and I had to go alone. It took an hour to stand in the crowd inside station to get to the metro. Also inside the metro, it was so crowded that I couldn't feel my legs anymore, I had to sit on the edge of the window at the end of the metro when many people were getting on the metro, but then passengers inside had to scream and say we can not take anymore people inside the metro.

Anyways, it took about 40 minutes, until some guy who worked there came and yelled when the metro opened the doors, telling us we reached Dubai Mall's station. But he was lying, they closed the Dubai Mall because it was TOO crowded, everyone was going to see the fireworks at Burj Khalifa (In Dubai Mall).

When people heard the guy, MANY MANY people who were in the metro got out. They dropped us at the station that was before Dubai Mall's. We were 30 minutes walk away from the Mall. Most of the roads were closed and it was hard to get to the area behind the mall or near it which was where I wanted to go. I had to walk in circles and circles, everytime my friends had to call me and give me directions but it was useless because I was lost and all the roads were closed. It was hard to know which direction was the right one.

It was too crowded, and after the fireworks ended and the new year had started while I'm still in the streets lost and have no idea where was I. I wondered if it was worth all the suffering and walking in the crowds and all that traffic,  I promised myself to never leave the house again in New year's eves. After the fireworks ended, people were leaving the area and began walking to their cars and that's when all the people crashed in together and the heavy crowd started. I got stuck with thousands of people in a street, for at least an hour. I couldn't breath and my whole back and legs were hurting me, because I was walking in circles all night from 9PM - 1AM. People in the behind were pushing the ones who were in the middle, and people who were in front were pushing the ones from behind. So I was stuck in the middle pushed from front and behind! - It was HELL, Really! And still the worst night in my entire life.  And kinda like survival of the fittest LOL! some people can be like animals who are fighting to survive. Even after the walking for hours and searching for the friends' house, I still couldn't reach it there. I was lost and I had no idea where was I. My friends had to call me every 10 minutes to give me directions, but I was too embarrassed because I had no idea where was I and I couldn't reach it in time even after midnight. We were going to see the fireworks from their friends' house where they had a great view of the Burj. But everytime I asked someone for directions, they told me a different directions, like someone would tell me to go east and then another person is going to tell me to go west. It was all confusing and I was lost all night, until my friends had to come and get me and took me to their home. I couldn't even get to my home because of all the traffic and crowd. All the Taxis were busy and people standing in queues to get a ride, and the metro was closed. It was a disaster. New year's eves are disasters.

So I stayed at my friends' house, drank a little Heineken beer and ate, then they had to sleep. They told me to stay the night but all what I thought of was to go back home and rest. I slept in the couch and at 5 in the morning I finally found a taxi down in the hotel, so I can finally get home after the longest night of my life. Now I think my friends will always think of me as ''The One who got lost in New Year's Eve.''

A place to hang out

Every friends have a place they like to hang out in. Whether it is in a friend's house, cafe, restaurant, bar. It is the place where every friend feels comfortable and enjoys staying in. My friend and I used to hang out in Starbucks. It was the place we liked. We felt comfortable there, and enjoyed the coffee, muffins, and croissant. In ''How I Met Your Mother'' TV show, the characters always sit at MacLaren's Pub. It is the place where they like to hang out to drink, eat, and talk. In the famous ''Friends'' series, they liked to hang out at the cafe ''Central Perk'', where they all sit and talked and shared laughs. Where ever you and your friends are, you would like a place to hang out in.

So do you already have a place? If you are still looking then this is how you should choose the perfect place for all your friends. First, it has to be comfortable for sure, and every friend may like it. Some good beverages and drinks, and food would be excellent too. Great furnished place would make sure it is comfy, and you would like the view of the place. At last, after you find the right place trust in yourself and the place you had picked, then your friends would sure like it too.

Enjoy!